TIME.

Long time no post. I dedicate this to all those people who want to make it in this business. Think about everything you do with your time; the people you see, shows you watch, parties on the weekend, family, boredom…IT ALL GOES AWAY. A normal person works 40 hours a week, in this economy most are lucky to do half, in the Entertainment business its a 60hr minimum that easily can become 70, 80, 90 even!

Kiss it all goodbye! You are doing what you love but it all comes with a price, one that you agree too but those around you don’t.

I have come to realize that those friends who are in no way are associated to film, tv, music, etc do not get it. It is a foreign concept. Not being able to go for a beer because the call time is early the next day, wanting to just sleep in and catch up on errands on the weekend, hanging out with your family the little bit of time you have. 

I find myself resenting them. Why is it so hard to understand? I only have 48hrs to do what I want…2 days a week for me! Monday thru Friday is about everyone else, making sure everyone else is fed and happy…Saturday and Sunday is my chance to be selfish (which I totally own!) 

I am allowed to be selfish….so do not go and call me conceited, self absorbed or full of myself! When I hear comments like that it pisses me off. You don’t know what I go through…I hear you complain about little things that make you tired (which is nothing) and I validate you and your feelings, Validate mine! 

I am not trying to have a pitty party, I just want people to know where I am coming from. The time I have is precious and I don’t want to waste it. Not trying to be “self centered” but feel special when I hang out with you because I could be with someone else, doing something else, but I choose to spend time with you! 

If you want in, this will be your fate. I feel at times out of the loop, alienated, alone. You stop hanging out but the world keeps going without you. Others fill your void and when you have time you don’t know what to do or where to go. It’s the challenge of finding a balance between work and life. One that I am having a hard time with. One my friends are dealing with and I am tired of explaining myself. 

Good luck! You can try to have your cake and eat it too but the ride isn’t as long.